Too Many Balls in the Air

Ever get store credit for sale stuff?

I had $15 in store credit

with which I planned to

purchase some diapers

on sale today.

BUT....

the credit expired YESTERDAY.

I thought it expired TODAY.

Ugh.

What a waste.  

I hate that.

I am telling myself

"Keep moving forward."

It's fine.

 

Most days I feel as if I am 

juggling.

I'm not very good at keeping 

all the balls up in the air.

I lose track of things.

I forget.

I am doing my best.

But a lot of the time

it feels as if it's 

just not enough.

 

I feel as if I am swimming 

as hard as I can

but I'm not moving.

I'm barely keeping

my head above water.

 

I'm tired.

Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Spiritually.

I just don't seem to have enough.  

Enough time. Enough energy.

Enough desire or gusto

to get it all done.

The way I want to do it.

 

I will keep moving forward.

I will not quit.

I will do my best.

And it will be enough.